Saturday, August 27, 2011
A giant jigsaw puzzle
It's two in the morning and I can't sleep. There's a giant jigsaw puzzle in my head that I can't put together. I'm not good at it. Or, am I just afraid to put it together. Am I? If I am, why? I never had a plan on who will I be when I grow up. I turned out OK. Not great, but ok. What I'm trying to say here is that things will be ok, whether or not you have a plan. Not all things that happened are well planned. Not everything have a reason. Maybe the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle are meant to be just a piece of a puzzle. They are not destined to form a bigger picture.
Most people will claim that they live their life the way they want it. They are lying. Even before we started making our own plans, our society had already created plan for us. Most of us made our own decisions, but our society were the one that gave us options. Even before we existed, we were already destined to craw, walk, study, get marry and die. Going out of the norms is difficult for us because we don't want to be judged by our family, friends, our society as a whole.
Maybe my puzzle aren't meant to be solved. I'm trained to think that I have to solve it but maybe I don't have to. If I only look at each pieces closely, I will learn that they are worthy by themselves. That they did make sense on their own.
It's almost 3 and I still can't sleep. But this time, I'm no longer putting together my jigsaw puzzle. Instead, I'm revisiting each pieces. I may never see the bigger picture, what I have is thousand small pieces of a jigsaw puzzle that complete me.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
I'm back.....
This is my first post in years. Many things have happened since then. I got kids now, Tsugtsug and Binog. Only last May, I decided to move back to Philippines. I should come up with new title for this blog soon. Honestly, with all the social networking sites like twitter and fb, I'm not sure what's left for me to share on my blogs. But fb starts to feel like class what you don't want to attend but you have to. I started to censor the things that I share there to the point that I rarely share things in fb. I even contemplated on deleting my account. Well, back to my blogs. I wanted to give them revive them but at the same time I don't want them to be just medium for my negative thoughts.
Well, this is too much for my non-sense. All I wanted to say for now is I'm back.
Well, this is too much for my non-sense. All I wanted to say for now is I'm back.
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