Monday, May 29, 2006
the continuation..
I can't sleep, I think it will be great to continue our story.
After that great night, here came the confused stage. At that time, we had our own lives. Our first instict was to zip our mounth, waiting for a sign. I was the first to give up. I sent her a message asking how she is and I told her that for me I found it weird and we should at least talk about it. I guess after two days of wishing that she would consider "us", I found a strength to talk to her, and tell her that I do like her. Of course at that time I can't say that I love her, or she is my life, my everything.
After work, we decided to walk around. We ate dinner and then visited bookstore. While I was looking at a book about modern houses, I realized that not only we have the same preference when in comes to houses, I actually, at that very moment planning to build a house for us. It was the first time I thought of pangs as my wife. And again, I found myself wishing that night will never end.
Weeks has gone by since that day, many things has changed. But as we spend more time together, I realized that I want to grow old with her, spend my lifetime with her. After having coffee with her friends, I ask her if we could go take a leave the next day. Go out of town. Tagaytay was our destination. I dont have a car, so we had to commute. After almost getting lost, we finally found the place, Sonya's Garden. We ate lunch. After that we sat in the beautiful garden. There I asked her if she would like to be mine. It was September 10, 2004,there at Sonia's Garden in Tagaytay, we officially became a couple.
And even we had each other, we still ecountered many problems, many glitches. But one thing remained the same, I always dream that we will grow old together, in a modern house we both design, with our kid and grand kids. And I always know that time will come, and I also know that we will be holding each other hands just like we did in Manila Peninsula, just like when we start dreaming together.
After that great night, here came the confused stage. At that time, we had our own lives. Our first instict was to zip our mounth, waiting for a sign. I was the first to give up. I sent her a message asking how she is and I told her that for me I found it weird and we should at least talk about it. I guess after two days of wishing that she would consider "us", I found a strength to talk to her, and tell her that I do like her. Of course at that time I can't say that I love her, or she is my life, my everything.
After work, we decided to walk around. We ate dinner and then visited bookstore. While I was looking at a book about modern houses, I realized that not only we have the same preference when in comes to houses, I actually, at that very moment planning to build a house for us. It was the first time I thought of pangs as my wife. And again, I found myself wishing that night will never end.
Weeks has gone by since that day, many things has changed. But as we spend more time together, I realized that I want to grow old with her, spend my lifetime with her. After having coffee with her friends, I ask her if we could go take a leave the next day. Go out of town. Tagaytay was our destination. I dont have a car, so we had to commute. After almost getting lost, we finally found the place, Sonya's Garden. We ate lunch. After that we sat in the beautiful garden. There I asked her if she would like to be mine. It was September 10, 2004,there at Sonia's Garden in Tagaytay, we officially became a couple.
And even we had each other, we still ecountered many problems, many glitches. But one thing remained the same, I always dream that we will grow old together, in a modern house we both design, with our kid and grand kids. And I always know that time will come, and I also know that we will be holding each other hands just like we did in Manila Peninsula, just like when we start dreaming together.
match made in heaven..
Saturday, May 27, 2006
checklist
1. (x) Crashed a friend's car. if father's car count, crashed it on my first date with pangs, roni's wedding.
2. ( ) Stolen a car.
3. (x) Been in love.
4. (x) Been dumped. opo, 2 out 6 relationship I had. may pattern pa nga eh, 2nd & 4th
5. (x) Shoplifted. counted ba yung 1-2-3 sa jeep?
6. (x) Been fired/laid off. tapang kasing sumagot sa boss eh, kinabukasan may termination letter na ako. did not bother to sue them, ayaw ng mother ko eh.
7. (x) Been in a fist fight.
8. ( ) Snuck out of your parent's house
9. (x) Had feelings for someone that didn't have them back.
10. ( ) Been arrested. not yet and hopefully not here in singapore, masakit atang mapalo ng cane.
11. ( ) Gone on a blind date.
12. (x) Lied to a friend.
13. (x) Skipped school. feeling ko kasi yung allowable absent ay kailangan kong gamitin.
14. ( ) Seen someone die.
15. ( ) Been to Canada.
16. ( ) Been to Mexico.
17. (x) Been on a plane.
18. (x) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire. pag walang kuryente, para mawala pagkainip.
19. (x) Eaten sushi. tried it but I dont like raw food.
20. ( ) Been skiing.
21. (x) Met someone in person from the internet. not from the internet, but from phone. and the date was a total disaster.
22. (x) Taken pain-killers. yep, but only when it really really hurt. I hate taking medicines.
23. (x) Love someone or miss someone right now. so much..
24. (x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
25. ( ) Made a snow angel.
26. ( ) Had a tea party.
27. (x) Flown a kite. hobby ko to nung bata ako, i even have this gurion (big kite).
28. ( ) Built a sand castle.
29. ( ) Gone puddle jumping.
30. ( ) Played dress up.
31. (x) Cheated while playing a game.
32. (x) Been lonely.
33. (x) Fallen asleep at work/school.
34. (x) Used a fake I.D. during high school, para makapasok. madalas ko kasing makalimutan yung ID ko, kaya gumagawa ako ng gatepass ko!
35. (x) Watched a sunset.
36. (x) Felt an earthquake.
37. (x) Touched a snake.
38. (x) Slept beneath the stars. with in the school grounds pa!
39. (x) Been tickled.
40. (x) Been robbed.
41. (x) Been misunderstood. a lot of times!
42. (x) Petted a reindeer/goat. my friend used to have a pet goat!
43. (x) Won a contest.
44. (x) Ran a red light.
45. ( ) Been suspended from school. almost, pero nakalusot eh.
46. (x) Been in a car accident.
47. (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night. one pint lang? konti naman..
49. (x) Had deja vu.
50. (x) Danced in the moonlight.
52. (x) Liked the way you looked.
53. ( ) Witnessed a crime.
54. (x) Questioned your heart.
55. ( ) Been obsessed with post it notes.
56. (x) Squished barefoot through the mud. may malapit na rice puddles samin eh.
57. (x) Been lost.
58. ( ) Been to the opposite side of the country.
59. ( ) Swam in the ocean.
60. (x) Felt like dying.
61. (x) Cried yourself to sleep.
62. (x) Played cops and robbers.
63. ( ) Recently colored with crayons.
64. (x) Sung karaoke.
65. (x) Paid for a meal with only coins.
66. (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
67. (x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. ( ) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
69. (x) Danced in the rain. you should try, great feeling
70. (x) Written a letter to Santa Claus. di naman sumasagot eh..
71. ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
72. ( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
73. (x) Blown bubbles.
74. ( ) Made a bonfire on the beach.
75. ( ) Crashed a party.
76. ( ) Gone roller-skating.
77. (x) Had a wish come true. yep, yep, yep
78. ( ) Worn pearls. di siguro bagay sakin!
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food. i heard they taste really good.
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. ( ) Kissed a mirror.
83. (x) Sang in the shower.
84. (x) Had a dream that you married someone. it came true!
85. (x) Glued your hand to something. clumpsy kasi ako eh!
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish.
88. (x) Sat on a rooftop.
89. (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. ( ) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
91. (x) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion.
92. (x) Stayed up all night.
93. ( ) Didn't take a shower for a week.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
95. ( ) Climbed a tree that had a tree house.
96. ( ) Been told by a complete stranger that you're hot.
97. ( ) Ever had a one night stand.
98. (x) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them.
99. ( ) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn't love you back.
100. ( ) Ever been to a professional baseball, football, or hockey game in a stadium.
101.( ) Went hiking in the mountains.
102. ( ) Smoked a cigar.
103. (x) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them. secret, adyan asawa ko, baka masapok ako! pero matagal na yun! :)
104. ( ) Wished you had the chance to change your profession.
105. ( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.
106. ( ) Wished you could live your life over again beginning at age 21.
107. (x) Been baptized.
108. (x) Rode a horse.
109. (x) Sent flowers to someone you never met. Actually never met before, I gave a flower to this girl I just saw in the party. It turned up that she was my teacher's niece.
2. ( ) Stolen a car.
3. (x) Been in love.
4. (x) Been dumped. opo, 2 out 6 relationship I had. may pattern pa nga eh, 2nd & 4th
5. (x) Shoplifted. counted ba yung 1-2-3 sa jeep?
6. (x) Been fired/laid off. tapang kasing sumagot sa boss eh, kinabukasan may termination letter na ako. did not bother to sue them, ayaw ng mother ko eh.
7. (x) Been in a fist fight.
8. ( ) Snuck out of your parent's house
9. (x) Had feelings for someone that didn't have them back.
10. ( ) Been arrested. not yet and hopefully not here in singapore, masakit atang mapalo ng cane.
11. ( ) Gone on a blind date.
12. (x) Lied to a friend.
13. (x) Skipped school. feeling ko kasi yung allowable absent ay kailangan kong gamitin.
14. ( ) Seen someone die.
15. ( ) Been to Canada.
16. ( ) Been to Mexico.
17. (x) Been on a plane.
18. (x) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire. pag walang kuryente, para mawala pagkainip.
19. (x) Eaten sushi. tried it but I dont like raw food.
20. ( ) Been skiing.
21. (x) Met someone in person from the internet. not from the internet, but from phone. and the date was a total disaster.
22. (x) Taken pain-killers. yep, but only when it really really hurt. I hate taking medicines.
23. (x) Love someone or miss someone right now. so much..
24. (x) Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by.
25. ( ) Made a snow angel.
26. ( ) Had a tea party.
27. (x) Flown a kite. hobby ko to nung bata ako, i even have this gurion (big kite).
28. ( ) Built a sand castle.
29. ( ) Gone puddle jumping.
30. ( ) Played dress up.
31. (x) Cheated while playing a game.
32. (x) Been lonely.
33. (x) Fallen asleep at work/school.
34. (x) Used a fake I.D. during high school, para makapasok. madalas ko kasing makalimutan yung ID ko, kaya gumagawa ako ng gatepass ko!
35. (x) Watched a sunset.
36. (x) Felt an earthquake.
37. (x) Touched a snake.
38. (x) Slept beneath the stars. with in the school grounds pa!
39. (x) Been tickled.
40. (x) Been robbed.
41. (x) Been misunderstood. a lot of times!
42. (x) Petted a reindeer/goat. my friend used to have a pet goat!
43. (x) Won a contest.
44. (x) Ran a red light.
45. ( ) Been suspended from school. almost, pero nakalusot eh.
46. (x) Been in a car accident.
47. (x) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night. one pint lang? konti naman..
49. (x) Had deja vu.
50. (x) Danced in the moonlight.
52. (x) Liked the way you looked.
53. ( ) Witnessed a crime.
54. (x) Questioned your heart.
55. ( ) Been obsessed with post it notes.
56. (x) Squished barefoot through the mud. may malapit na rice puddles samin eh.
57. (x) Been lost.
58. ( ) Been to the opposite side of the country.
59. ( ) Swam in the ocean.
60. (x) Felt like dying.
61. (x) Cried yourself to sleep.
62. (x) Played cops and robbers.
63. ( ) Recently colored with crayons.
64. (x) Sung karaoke.
65. (x) Paid for a meal with only coins.
66. (x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
67. (x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out your nose.
68. ( ) Caught a snowflake on your tongue.
69. (x) Danced in the rain. you should try, great feeling
70. (x) Written a letter to Santa Claus. di naman sumasagot eh..
71. ( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe.
72. ( ) Watched the sun rise with someone you care about
73. (x) Blown bubbles.
74. ( ) Made a bonfire on the beach.
75. ( ) Crashed a party.
76. ( ) Gone roller-skating.
77. (x) Had a wish come true. yep, yep, yep
78. ( ) Worn pearls. di siguro bagay sakin!
79. ( ) Jumped off a bridge.
80. ( ) Ate dog/cat food. i heard they taste really good.
81. ( ) Told a complete stranger you loved them.
82. ( ) Kissed a mirror.
83. (x) Sang in the shower.
84. (x) Had a dream that you married someone. it came true!
85. (x) Glued your hand to something. clumpsy kasi ako eh!
86. ( ) Got your tongue stuck to a flagpole.
87. ( ) Kissed a fish.
88. (x) Sat on a rooftop.
89. (x) Screamed at the top of your lungs.
90. ( ) Done a one-handed cartwheel.
91. (x) Talked on the phone for more than six hours on one occasion.
92. (x) Stayed up all night.
93. ( ) Didn't take a shower for a week.
94. ( ) Picked and ate an apple right off the tree.
95. ( ) Climbed a tree that had a tree house.
96. ( ) Been told by a complete stranger that you're hot.
97. ( ) Ever had a one night stand.
98. (x) Ever missed someone so much it still hurts to think of them.
99. ( ) Ever loved someone that you knew wouldn't love you back.
100. ( ) Ever been to a professional baseball, football, or hockey game in a stadium.
101.( ) Went hiking in the mountains.
102. ( ) Smoked a cigar.
103. (x) Had a crush on someone you worked with but never told them. secret, adyan asawa ko, baka masapok ako! pero matagal na yun! :)
104. ( ) Wished you had the chance to change your profession.
105. ( ) Ever cremated and kept the ashes of a pet you cared a lot about.
106. ( ) Wished you could live your life over again beginning at age 21.
107. (x) Been baptized.
108. (x) Rode a horse.
109. (x) Sent flowers to someone you never met. Actually never met before, I gave a flower to this girl I just saw in the party. It turned up that she was my teacher's niece.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
norah jones & a pale of tears
If I were a painter
I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We'd be there together
Just like we used to be
Undertneath the swirling skies for all to see
And I'm dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would tak eme there
But only...
If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you
No, I was not angry with anyone. I just miss my wife so much. I revisited the first blog entry of pangs about me. Until now I can't believe she is talking about me in that blog. I just hope I never disappointed her. I just hope, 10, 20 years from now she can still see the same qualities she saw when she wrote this. As for me, I'll try to be that person again, try to be my pangs dream boy again.
Reading that entry again, I remember how we started. It was 27th day of August of year 2004. It was the the first time I saw Geri wear a skirt, she was beautiful. My mind went blank as I looked at her sitting across me in the lobby. I never realized that she noticed that I was staring at her. Until now I can't describe the feeling. It was like seeing the person you really love walk the aisle towards you. Of course at that time I never thought we will end up as Mr. & Mrs. Arenas. At that time I'm just mesmerized by her. Before I knew it, I was teasing her. To be honest, I was trying to flirt with her the whole day. And when I got the chance, I took it. I held her hand, praying that she wont get mad at me. She didn't. I felt so good, and at that instance I forgot everthing. I just wanted that moment to last forever. I even forgot the fact that our boss might saw us, as we sat outside the bar, holding each other hands. I believe he saw us, but he decided not to make a comment or anything. Eventually, he became one of our godfathers. Well, there are two things I should be grateful to him, it was his treat that night that is why we were there in the first place and for not saying anything. If he spoke a word, things may have turned up differently. And before that night ended, we talked on the phone, still teasing each other. It was when I held her hand that I knew it was her that want to be with forever. It was when we were talking on the phone I got a hint that, maybe we will be together forever.
And now, we still don't know what tomorrow might bring us. But I know, just like that night of August 27, 2004, No matter what happens one thing remains true. I still want to hold my pangs' hand.
I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We'd be there together
Just like we used to be
Undertneath the swirling skies for all to see
And I'm dreaming of a place
Where I could see your face
And I think my brush would tak eme there
But only...
If I were a painter
And could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies to be with you
I'd climb inside the skies to be with you
No, I was not angry with anyone. I just miss my wife so much. I revisited the first blog entry of pangs about me. Until now I can't believe she is talking about me in that blog. I just hope I never disappointed her. I just hope, 10, 20 years from now she can still see the same qualities she saw when she wrote this. As for me, I'll try to be that person again, try to be my pangs dream boy again.
Reading that entry again, I remember how we started. It was 27th day of August of year 2004. It was the the first time I saw Geri wear a skirt, she was beautiful. My mind went blank as I looked at her sitting across me in the lobby. I never realized that she noticed that I was staring at her. Until now I can't describe the feeling. It was like seeing the person you really love walk the aisle towards you. Of course at that time I never thought we will end up as Mr. & Mrs. Arenas. At that time I'm just mesmerized by her. Before I knew it, I was teasing her. To be honest, I was trying to flirt with her the whole day. And when I got the chance, I took it. I held her hand, praying that she wont get mad at me. She didn't. I felt so good, and at that instance I forgot everthing. I just wanted that moment to last forever. I even forgot the fact that our boss might saw us, as we sat outside the bar, holding each other hands. I believe he saw us, but he decided not to make a comment or anything. Eventually, he became one of our godfathers. Well, there are two things I should be grateful to him, it was his treat that night that is why we were there in the first place and for not saying anything. If he spoke a word, things may have turned up differently. And before that night ended, we talked on the phone, still teasing each other. It was when I held her hand that I knew it was her that want to be with forever. It was when we were talking on the phone I got a hint that, maybe we will be together forever.
And now, we still don't know what tomorrow might bring us. But I know, just like that night of August 27, 2004, No matter what happens one thing remains true. I still want to hold my pangs' hand.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
thanks elliot..
I was at my room when I heard a familiar sound coming from the living room, it AI night. Atleast, for a while I can stop longing to be hope. It was doing fine until Elliot sung Home by Micheal Bubble. I was not really into Micheal Bubble (pangs hate him) but this song really capture me. If I was alone in the living room, I might have cried. Getting a job in Singapore sounds really great, I was very happy when they said I got it. But working here is exact opposite. I really miss everyone back home, I really really miss my parents, in-laws, sisters. And my pangs, I'll do everything just to be with her again. I miss her so bad that sometimes I wish my EP will be revoke, and I can go home to her. bring out your umbrella, for the next 7 months i'll be singing this song...
Another summer day
has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome...
but I wanna go home
...uhm Home
may be surrounded by
a million people I
still feel all alone
just wanna go home
I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters
that I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?
I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky I know
but I wanna go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living
someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
when everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
This was not your dream
but you always believed in me...
Another winter day
Has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
baby I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
it'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
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